I am in a need of distance on a daily basis. Life requires full presence of me, and being suck of energy usually happens when I’m around too many people, but that’s not all.
I get hurt or endure different kinds of pain when something unpleasant happens to me and then I need a significant distance from… life.
While paying attention to people around me, seeing what choices influence the ripple effect of getting hurt or how they ‘allow’ others to trap them in uncomfortable situations and how staying on the ground for a few minutes/ hours/ days is essential, has awaken a new understanding in me.
It’s not just me. It’s all of us. We all need distance to regroup ourselves.
We take it with tears or liquids or food or movies or sport or nothing. This nothing is the cheapest technique. Laying down in bed, with face towards the mattresses, breathing slowly with eyes half open, with limbs relaxing after a night of baby position rocking back and forth, and two streams of salty water flowing uncontrollable.
Life happens and hits with full strength until we are face down and numb of pain. Realizations hits afterwards when the mind almost understands what the heck happened. Significant other sees and speaks words of foreign languages, because the inability to comprehend anything does not exist. Not in those moments, anyway.
The hardest fall of all is the death of a dear human who once brought smiles and pleased emotions, who had an important task that guided segments of life, changes everything. And nothing can be the same afterwards. That important human is gone. How can you continue life the next day? How you manage to replace the phone calls or the let’s get-together? Some people say with time, I say with time and distance.
We distance ourselves from people, responsibilities, compromises and ultimately life. We take a necessary break from life. It’s the best defense mechanism that we were born with.
At the end of the day, or at the beginning of the day, we deserve the distance, and taking it is a must, for the days shall come.