it’s that time when you want to tell and cry in the same time but all you can do is to let the eyelids rest peacefully while a river of tears is forming in the corner of the eye. in a unique, silent way you let the liquid pain flow to the knees not on the hands. no. you need them to hold the heavy head. in case you let it go for two seconds it will break. like a chain of reactions, and anyone will hear. no sigh for others.